Today was a pretty surreal day for me. I still don't think it's hit me that I won't be working for a year. It was pretty busy for most of the day so I didn't really start saying goodbye until after 3:00p.m. Even then I found it strange. I didn't really feel like I wouldn't be seeing these people for a while so it didn't feel like 'goodbye'
Both of my sisters contacted me in the morning to ask me if I was excited, but to be honest I felt more nervous and anxious. Part of it is knowing that baby will be arriving soon and that's a huge change but the other big change is not working. For so many years I have been at work. Sure, I've taken vacation but always in the back of my mind I knew I had something to do when I returned. And the longest vacation I've taken is 2 weeks when we went to Hawaii (ahhhh.....Hawaii). Also, work is going through a lot of changes so not being around for it I think makes me a little nervous too. I know that everyone will keep me updated, and I've asked to still be able to access my e-mail while I'm away so I can keep in touch so I don't really need to worry about that. I think it's that little bit of a control freak in me that just needs to know.
I have plans for Monday and Tuesday next week so it may not hit me until later on. I guess I'll just have to see how it goes, or maybe baby will come early and I'll be occupied with other things. I don't think so though, I think she's going to be just on time or late.
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